Little Rays of Sunshine

Hello Interpeeps!  I am starting to feel a little bit more myself these days. "Whatever do you mean?" you ask.   Well, I kicked a cat this morning...

Seriously, the divorce is going great.  And by "great" I mean it's not going anywhere. 

We still co-habitat. 

We still don't get along. 

I still make the chili with ground turkey instead of ground beef (a crime against God and man) because I know he won't eat it otherwise.

And I could post a thousand snarky comments about why that sucks and how horrible things are for me but I won't.  Instead I will tell you about a moment. 

It wasn't such a big moment. 

I was standing in a house talking to a realtor about renting it.  I didn't end up renting it for a number of reasons (all my own) but it was at that moment that I felt myself turning a corner.

I could suddenly see the possibility of a future with my children that didn't include the Wasband.

I could glimpse the adult life for which I've longed.

A little ray of sunshine peeked through the thickness of those ominous clouds that have been following me around for a year now.  And I knew for the very first time that I was going to be okay.

Comments

[andrea]

JENNY!

luv you...good to hear from you:)

hang in there, i'm glad you feel like you can breathe and that you are reassured of life continuing after such altering events.

you can do it...in your own way and time.

andrea
p.s. it took me a YEAR after separating from my "wasband" to finally refuse to cut his hair. that was momentous for me. as trivial as it may sound.

[angela]

I'm also glad to see that you're alive even if it is only barely. I'm glad you can see the future without him. Good luck and thanks for checking in.

[Fat Bridesmaid]

JENNY!!! I'm so glad you posted this and even gladder (what? it's a word.) that you had this moment. YAY!

[ElleBee]

I can only echo everyone else's sentiments...so glad you've checked in! I've no doubt that you'll have many more "moments"! Hang in there, Jenny! :)

[The Eastsider]

Happy for your moment! Hang in there! We love you!

[Moneypit Mama]

Hang in there - I found your blog last year when I was searching for a cheesy hashbrown recipe last Christmas(and yes - thank you!). As a prior single mother, I can tell you that you will survive - and you will do it happily. Especially as you start making decisions for your children, yourself, and no one else. It's incredible!

[Thea @ I'm a Drama Mama]

It's all about those little rays, isn't it? Good to have you back!

[Jenn@ You know... that Blog?]

"Wasband"!!! I LOVE THAT - hahaha :D I mean, yeah, I get that it's because of ending, heartbreak, yadda yadda, but that word is just so empowering.

Awesome. You go, girl.